Every day is a winding road. This journey called getting healthy is so interesting. It has been a time of introspection, soul searching, beating my fists against the walls, pumping my arms and screaming "yes yes yes!"
It has been a little bit of everything. Now, at this stage I am really seeing some results. There are parts of my body that have changed and I do a double take when I look in the mirror.
I've noticed too when people take my photo, I always look twice when they show it to me.... I ask myself "Who is that?" and brain answers back "It's you!"
It is interesting how it is easier to say no to desserts and certain treats. There was a time when I could polish off a carton of ice cream like it was a contest at a fair. Now, I just wave my hand and say "no thanks"
Not long into this path, I realized how for so many years I had replaced turning to God, with food. I know, it is so cliche but, for so long all the little hurts, stresses and emotions of the day just went into a cheeseburger or candy bar. Not having my safety net of food has caused me to rely on HIM and trust in HIM. It is a struggle at times because I know I can't have that food, yet I want it so I become very frustrated in that moment. Thanks heavens those moments don't define me.
I've also had to boost my confidence. No that food is no longer my go-to comfort I have had to get real with people. If something is too much I have to be honest about it or maintain my distance. I am more about being transparent with people and being real as opposed to "I'll just take it now and stuff myself with french fries later" that is simply no longer an option.
I feel like I am being re-made at times and being refined and reworked is painful but, it also holds AMAZING potential. I am excited to see what keeps happening.
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| Sorry for the crazy wild eyed look. It was a quick auto pic :) |
I've noticed too when people take my photo, I always look twice when they show it to me.... I ask myself "Who is that?" and brain answers back "It's you!"
It is interesting how it is easier to say no to desserts and certain treats. There was a time when I could polish off a carton of ice cream like it was a contest at a fair. Now, I just wave my hand and say "no thanks"
Not long into this path, I realized how for so many years I had replaced turning to God, with food. I know, it is so cliche but, for so long all the little hurts, stresses and emotions of the day just went into a cheeseburger or candy bar. Not having my safety net of food has caused me to rely on HIM and trust in HIM. It is a struggle at times because I know I can't have that food, yet I want it so I become very frustrated in that moment. Thanks heavens those moments don't define me.
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| Left this behind! |
I've also had to boost my confidence. No that food is no longer my go-to comfort I have had to get real with people. If something is too much I have to be honest about it or maintain my distance. I am more about being transparent with people and being real as opposed to "I'll just take it now and stuff myself with french fries later" that is simply no longer an option.
I feel like I am being re-made at times and being refined and reworked is painful but, it also holds AMAZING potential. I am excited to see what keeps happening.
You look amazing, Mel! :) You're an inspiration. Praise the Lord for your incredible journey. :)
ReplyDeleteMel! I finally figured out how to find your blogs…I'm lame with all this tech stuff! You look amazing!!! Your determination is more encouraging then you will ever know!!!
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