I've been over weight for a while now. I've been looking over past photos this week as I think on my progress.
Most of my adult life has been lived on the heavy side, and never have I ever had a victory.
In the past, I would work out for a few weeks and eat healthy only to see my weight pile back on.
I've been scratching my head and wondering what finally has kicked in for me. For the most part, I lose weight, eat healthy foods and love working out.
For me, I believe I had some personal and emotional issues to work through that kept me focused on food instead of God. When upset or angry I would turn to the cheeseburger instead of realising the greatness of God.
I spent so much of my time, pushing thoughts inward and focusing on people pleasing or just getting through on a daily basis.
One thing I've noticed that I am living my life in a real way.
My friends are supportive and encouragement
My jobs are ones that I've hand picked and know that God wants me in them
Where I live is just where God wants me to be
My children are imperfect lovely little creatures
My health journey has been about so much more than food and exercise. It meant forgiving others for wrongs done in the past and truly shutting that door. It also meant learning how to interact with people in a healthy way. I do things because I know I am serving the Lord and because it bring me joy to give to others. I do NOT do it out of guilt, or to make people like me. I realized that I did not have to be friends with each person who came down the road. There were people in my life that did not build me up, and the relationships took their toll on me. I have moved on from those. Not in anger or hostility just because it needed to be done.
All these things come together to make a new me. Sometimes this change is soul crushing agony as I deal with my past and begin to process things in a newly fashioned way.
Sometimes it just feel really great to live my life as God had intended.
He put me together, he saved me and he is pleased with me.
That is how I live my life now!
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| 2005 |
Most of my adult life has been lived on the heavy side, and never have I ever had a victory.
In the past, I would work out for a few weeks and eat healthy only to see my weight pile back on.
I've been scratching my head and wondering what finally has kicked in for me. For the most part, I lose weight, eat healthy foods and love working out.
For me, I believe I had some personal and emotional issues to work through that kept me focused on food instead of God. When upset or angry I would turn to the cheeseburger instead of realising the greatness of God.
I spent so much of my time, pushing thoughts inward and focusing on people pleasing or just getting through on a daily basis.
One thing I've noticed that I am living my life in a real way.
My friends are supportive and encouragement
My jobs are ones that I've hand picked and know that God wants me in them
Where I live is just where God wants me to be
My children are imperfect lovely little creatures
My health journey has been about so much more than food and exercise. It meant forgiving others for wrongs done in the past and truly shutting that door. It also meant learning how to interact with people in a healthy way. I do things because I know I am serving the Lord and because it bring me joy to give to others. I do NOT do it out of guilt, or to make people like me. I realized that I did not have to be friends with each person who came down the road. There were people in my life that did not build me up, and the relationships took their toll on me. I have moved on from those. Not in anger or hostility just because it needed to be done.
All these things come together to make a new me. Sometimes this change is soul crushing agony as I deal with my past and begin to process things in a newly fashioned way.
Sometimes it just feel really great to live my life as God had intended.
He put me together, he saved me and he is pleased with me.
That is how I live my life now!
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